Typical Hope & Laughter

Update: Time flies disgustingly quickly… School is just around the corner. I’ve contemplated a lot before I went to sleep each night… and lately, life seems to be at its worse for most people at this age… Or as it seems just now. I forgot how to blog… I forgot how to keep my words flowing together… I just have a bunch of thoughts roaming around in my head… Flowing aimlessly…

This past week was crazy! Most random weather, from the most humid heats to coldest rainfalls…. I’ve had a bunch of laughs and unfortunately, one of the scariest moments of my life. I wish I was permitted to elaborate further about these moments but… I’m not allowed. For now.

All individuals on earth are typical beings. We all have similar necessities, demands, needs, and desires… We even think the same way and clash in the same direction. The world is strictly split down the middle, between the “good” and the “bad’. More and more, everything is becoming clear.

I’m starting to realize things I once that was impossible to comprehend. As we grew, as I grow, I”m more and more exposed to harm and “evil”. And increasingly, I’m losing all my battles. It’s hard to win when everyone else around me seems to be following one direction and crashing into me while I”m moving in the other direction. What is right or wrong? What is normal and what is not? How is anyone to say what is normal and not? The world if filled with eclectic opinions and beliefs. How are we all supposed to unite as “one”?
When we, ourselves,  are killing each other?
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Someone told me stress was actually good… As my naïve self, I cannot understand how stress is good for someone… (?) Stress only increases worries and feelings of anxiety. It leaves someone restless and exhausted. Tell me, what is good about stress?
What I dislike about stress is not stress itself, but what causes it.

I guess typical reasons for my stress are what most teenagers my age go through… family disputes, friend dramas, college… even relationships. Even though my world is so diminutive and insignificant towards the world, I feel as if my little stresses are everything.

I’ll just have to hope that everything will eventually be all right. If I beg earnestly for rain, I’ll be carrying around an umbrella.
Hope is knowing that people are like kites are made to be lifted up.

Currently listening to 웃음만 by 지아.

The only way to go through pain is with laughter.