Rope > String

Update: People don’t realize until after it’s over. After it’s over, it’s too late.

“Speak from your heart, you’ll have a lot more to say.”

There were many things in my head that kept replaying over and over. I wanted to get rid of them, so I decided to be real today. This post. Right now, at this moment.

What was weird was that, lately I’ve come across many “best friend advice” scenarios. Experiences from myself, cliché movies, and from others.

Why do people have “best friends”? Are they here for people to share similarities? Compare differences? To give and receive? I think the reason why many people have a best friend is because, people need someone to talk to, needing someone to listen to their hardships and circumstances… So what. Even if the “best friends” do listen and give advice, half the people don’t even listen to that advice. People seem to just want comfort or pity.

Don’t ask me if you won’t take my answer into consideration.

This is how I feel now. I wonder how my close friends felt before… When I was some obsessed freak. Young and naïve. Fickle and clumsy. I’m sorry for not listening to you guys, I realize now, how stupid I must have looked… And because I know this…
I want to help you.

Don’t you understand? I’ve been sitting here, attentive for you, caring for you. I hurt myself over stupid things before too, so I don’t want you to do the same. Why don’t you listen?! Why do you ask and ignore?  It’s frustrating. I know our situations aren’t the same, but they’re similar. This will result only into a regret. Into bitter hatred. And I know you know this because this had already happened.  That girl was the same as my the boy. Treating us to make us feel special, leaving us hanging when they want, knowing our feelings and crushing over them. And haven’t you noticed?! It only made you angry; it made me angry.

Then, there are these “maybes” that comfort us, that give us hope. Maybe they’re not doing that on purpose, maybe they feel the same for us… maybe.

Maybe for you it can be different. But for me, it wasn’t. This passed. And you’re not going to believe it but, I’m actually very happy now.

If you’re not content with the result, then it’s not the end.

So stop clinging onto a piece of string that will soon rip. Here, I’m lending, giving you rope, grab onto it. Even though rope won’t last forever, it will last longer than the thread you’re desperately clinging onto.

P.S. I take back about me wanting to rewind, I just want my life to keep rolling tape. No more pauses. No time nor reason to look back. I’m not going to move forward if I keep looking back. The future’s looking bright. Yesterday was a storm, tomorrow has plenty of sunshine in store. Literally.

Currently listening to: 죽을 만큼 아파서 by MC몽 featuring Mellow.
This is how I used to feel and this is how you feel now.

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